Marc Randy
Science & Tech Editor

I want to live

I want to have friends I can laugh with when times are good and get comfort from when times are hard

I have that, so why am I filled with dread at the thought of what tomorrow may bring?

I want to love

I want to have someone I can be close with for the first time in my life

Someone I don’t have to guard against, and stop my soul from rattling inside me

I know the odds of finding them are good, so why do I keep being disappointed?

I want to learn

I want to know everything that we’ve done and everything we’ve made

I want to build new things and marvel at my creativity and skill

I know mastery is obtainable, so why do I have no will to work?

I want to fight

I want to face down others in a battle of skill, wit, or strength and triumph

I want to pit my very best against someone else’s and battle it out until the end

I want to shed all of my blood, sweat, and tears until I’m completely empty

I know I’ll have the chance to prove myself, so why do I feel fragile?

I want to live

I want to walk this Earth free and safe, not fearing for myself or for others

I want to see what this world has to offer and enjoy my life

I know that it’s possible, so where are these chains and this weight coming from?

No country to call my own

No people I’m sure will stay

I’m just lost in the darkness, so far away from home

Originally Published on Vol.49 Issue 11 on March 18th, 2020